Are you experiencing the Dark Night of the Soul? 15 Signs of the Dark Night
I was always empathic as a child and energy sensitive, I would get sad easily. But this would be nothing compared to entering a period of the Dark Night.
When I was a teenager I started to experience extreme depression which just wouldn't leave me, it was like a dark cloud that followed me everywhere I went.
I felt like an alien amongst others and alone in the world. I wanted 'out' of this world we live in, it all just didn't make sense to me as the years went on.. money, jobs, why people were so unkind to each other and on and on...
My relationships were particularly unhealthy as my mind was so scattered and I did not feel worthy of the 'norm'. I had turned to alcohol and drugs and men to numb the pain of living and to fill that deep empty void that was just unfillable.
I woke each morning with a constant feeling of dread and wondered if I would ever feel happiness.
As each year progressively got worse, I felt like something was brewing within me, in my gut.
I was losing myself progressively... and then I did.
At 26, I had developed a meth habit, was intravenously using then moved on to turning tricks to support my habit. I got in to trouble with the law, lost all my worldly belongings but most importantly my children and family in the process.
I had to start again from scratch..
I absolutely could not see the light at the end of the tunnel during this period of my life.
I had finally hit the bottom and surrendered and went to detox. There is so much beauty in this and so much more I could say here but I will keep on point.
Once I had surrendered, amazing things started happening in my life and a divine flow started to happen. I knew I was meant for something big here on this earth. My eyes were now 'open'. The fog started to lift and I got clean and sober.
I invited a higher power in to my life and began to have a spiritual awakening.
The old me, old life, old ideas, old beliefs, old friends, old everything fell away and a new me emerged.
A kind, beautiful, loving soul who wants to help and serve others who are going through the same experience.
Are you experiencing a Dark Night of the Soul ?
The Dark Night is akin to an ego death leading to a spiritual awakening some would say. This may be due to a particularly dark period in life caused by a traumatic event or come on spontaneously.
I believe there are no mistakes and we are all here for our own soul missions. That our remembering/awakenings happen when they need to.
The earth is ascending in to a new period leading up to 2032 as written in Diana Cooper's book: Transition to the Golden Age of 3032 and the more light and love we can spread accross the planet at this time, the easier this transition this will be for the greatest good of all.
Signs you may be experiencing the Dark Night:
Deep depression that just lingers and won't leave you, this may last many years
Experiencing a deep sense of dread
Suffering with anxiety & panic or fear
A deep feeling of loneliness & isolation -you may feel overwhemingly lost
A feeling you are meant for something much bigger
You can't see the light at the end of the tunnel
Feeling stuck or confused in life -you don't know which direction to take
Feeling overwhelming emotions
Having irregular sleeping patterns
You become aware of society conditioning
You start rethinking your old ideas & beliefs
You start empathizing with others
You start experiencing synchronicities
You start meditating or enjoy actually just 'be'ing still
You discover hidden 'gifts' you've always had
Spanish Mystic & Poet, St John of the Cross wrote this poem in the 16th-century describing La noche oscura del alma: Dark Night of the Soul. It is 'said' that St John was imprisoned at the time in Toledo when he composed the following:
The Dark Night of the Soul
St John Of the Cross
On a dark night, Kindled in love with yearnings–oh, happy chance!– I went forth without being observed, My house being now at rest.
In darkness and secure, By the secret ladder, disguised–oh, happy chance!– In darkness and in concealment,
My house being now at rest.
In the happy night, In secret, when none saw me, Nor I beheld aught, Without light or guide, save that which burned in my heart.
This light guided me More surely than the light of noonday To the place where he (well I knew who!) was awaiting me– A place where none appeared.
Oh, night that guided me, Oh, night more lovely than the dawn, Oh, night that joined Beloved with lover, Lover transformed in the Beloved!
Upon my flowery breast, Kept wholly for himself alone, There he stayed sleeping, and I caressed him, And the fanning of the cedars made a breeze.
The breeze blew from the turret As I parted his locks; With his gentle hand he wounded my neck And caused all my senses to be suspended.
I remained, lost in oblivion; My face I reclined on the Beloved. All ceased and I abandoned myself, Leaving my cares forgotten among the lilies.